So many things have been bothering me lately.. I guess in being idle it is always expected to have a wandering mind and a searching heart. For four years of my "stint" in the US.. I've always been very busy, preoccupied that I can't even sit down and reflect what I really want in my life. I just went with the flow, working, saving and spending... I felt empty inside... but then I'm so lucky that I have Howard, Teacup and Chloe that kept me grounded and make me sane.
I've been home for more than a month now and I've never been happier in my life. If only I can bring my little family from the US here.. that would make everything complete. But then again, you can never really have everything... I felt like I'm lost in between two worlds that I don't know which road to forge ahead. It seems like I'm only a visitor here in the Philippines... which was once my home and still is deep inside my heart.. and a temporary resident in the US which I don't know how long I can fully accept in my heart that that is my new home now. I guess I'm just in this state of confusion which is even more complicated with a haunting past that I need to deal with and should have done 6 years ago....hayyyy.... sorry guys for sounding so confused and sad today... rare moments that the lonely bug bit me... shake it off peewee!!!